I think, therefore I am 

Me after a night of no sleep 

My heart beat rapidly against my chest as I strained to draw breath into my scarred lungs. I fell rapidly through the heavens, plummeting to my doom. A moment it was there, the next it is gone. What held me up has pushed me down. Spinning out of control I reached for the door. I grasped out with all of my strength, but the evening is unforgiving. The night swallowed me whole as I cried out in despair.

I feel my heart beat rapidly against my chest as I strain to draw the cool air into my decrepit lungs. I've lost sight of who I am. I've lost control of what was me. At the bottom of a well, I float submerged in misery. Dripping in defeat. I am gone. My mind is lost my soul is broken. I am finished. Clawing at the stone I reach for the skies.

My heart will soon beat rapidly as my mind will lose its grip, I'll fight for air as I slip away forever. Drifing in the darkness, alone with my thoughts. I will be forgotten. My heart stops beating, my lungs forget to breathe. I am forgotten.

Searching my soul to remember my name.

Grasping the winds to hold on to my face.

Burning inside for what I've become.

Forgotten in lost memories.

Trying not to try.

Laughing not to cry.

Smiling not to frown.

Begging to be happy.

Longing for release.

Wishing for the past.

Gasping for air.

Lost in the darkness.

All the wrong things...

For all the right reasons...

Falling down from heaven, they plummet to the ground.

Scorched wings, burning souls, forgotten children.

They are the few, they are the wicked.

Daring to stand, Willing to fight.

A Father with conditional love.

A love that is longed for.

Desire.

Pride.

Guilt.

Death.

Hell.

Eternity in torment.

Silent screams echoing through emptiness.

They are the few.

They are the wicked.

They are the forgotten.

Fall through the shadows and dance in the darkness.

Caress midnights soft skin, crashing into silence.

Lost in eternal chaos, fighting to survive.

Inefficacious is my name, useless inside to out.

Bleed from the heart.

Burn from the soul.

Losing sanity.

Lost control.

Look in the mirror, break what you see.

Forgetting myself, Forgotten me.

What I was then.

Who I am now.

Battle inside.

Losing control.

Lost sanity.

What am I now?

Who was I then?

Drape it over.

Sew it shut.

Seal it with a smile.